Happiness

Happiness is just a state of the mind.
...... is being satisfied with what you have.
...... equates to simplicity.

Am i getting bored?
And looking for trouble?
Why can't i be more complacent?

Well, i hope i have made the right choice.
It is what i want for myself and i know i will regret overtime if i let time passby.
I have to force myself to change, learn and grow.

Knowing myself, it will be difficult.
But at least i tried by taking the first step.
Hopefully people around me will not be too quick to give up and will see the potential.

Happy Birthday, Stevie!!

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Clubbing ~ after so long

It has been a long long time since i last went to a club. Although i love to dance, but the alcohol, late nights, loud music and rowdy crowds just don't seem appealing anymore. Everytime i feel like dancing, the thought of having to deal with all the noise and late nights puts me off. Even though i know once i hit the dance floor and the right music is on, i will enjoy myself but still it has been awhile since i last stepped into a club.

On Saturday night, we went out clubbing.

As the gals are recently feeling down recently, we thought we should have a crazy night to make ourselves feel more upbeat.

Not a bad decision. We went to St James as Jan has membership and we can do without the cover charge. The singers are great, some of the performances later in the night are hilarous and it's been long long time since we heard retros (bring back memories). The diversity of the crowd is amazing. The crowd ages from late 40s to early 20s and there is even a group of Indians even though the songs are mandarin.

There is a group in their mid to late 30s hanging around playing one of Steve favourite game, Bluff. Always thought it was just a phase and he will eventually get over the game. But after seeing those guys so much enjoying it still, i doubt he will ever quit it (he even have a set in his Macau home, ever ready for friends to come over to have a game).

We had a group of guys in their mid 20s approaching us (i must say this is thanks to Jacq). Not sure whether it prove we are still looking young or they are interested in older women. Well, not too bad as we are all in our late 20s and one of us with a baby. Though they are good looking, too bad none of us is interested in finding a younger guy to support and i guess they will find us "aunties" once they discover our age.

With all the music and dance, some energy of the nightlife must have soak itself into me making me feel younger and more energised.

Stubborn Gal

Just made a realisation of myself after soo many years.

I am a very stubborn gal.

Was very surprise at this self-realisation.

For the longest time, i thought i am a person that takes things easy.
Stubbornness. Whenever this word pops up, i think about my mum and sis.
Me? Never......

The other day, i was talking to Stevie and mentioned about it. And he doesn't seem surprise at all. Which makes me wonder "Do i give people such impression?" because it is definitely new to me.

Maybe it is a different kind of stubbornness.

I am very stubborn in how i want things done (sounds like my mum....scary)
Not that i want to make the ultimate decision (sounds better......and not like my mum) but i want to have all gound covered and discussed before i am open to any final decision making.
Sometimes, it may result in more effort and time wasted but still i am very obsess about it (i don't know why?)
The idea of not having all the choices and all the information available before me and having to make a decision just make me unease.

Well, i guess i do have some of my mum stubborn genes after all. And after so many years it is just in me and i didn't know.